The Speed

In the shadows of Coconut tree, I had my house at Vashi, Navi Mumbai. Roy is my name, I lived there from my birth, I have been going to the school Apeejay high school till 12th standard, I didn't had any girlfriends till 11th standard that didn't mean that I was a loser, I had gotten two three proposals which I refused, they just weren't my type. Well music was my passion as my dad was guitarist so I had it in my blood, I had one elder sister and my sweet mother which I loved the most, I hated my sister we had lots of fights between each other, dad used to say in brother sister relations, fights do get the love increased between them. Well I just had some usual crushes in those days which were impossible to get any further improvement, as I liked a senior once. I didn't got this stuff! A girl can date any male elder to her, but a boy never dates a gal elder to him. Apart from love I liked to make new friends and interact and exchange knowledge, I wasn't that smart in studies, I was average, but I had some great ideas hidden inside me.
I had planned my future as I was in 12th, I had to be concern about it, I had planned to be an engineer getting graduated in 4 years, getting a job, followed my dad’s guidance as he was an chemical engineer, he had many expectations, I had a lot respect for my dad, he had warned me I won’t get approval for marrying until I get a good job with a good income. I had some stupid friends every time we used to hang out in some cyber cafe playing D.O.T.A all day long. We weren't pushed into smoking thing, as we had an addiction of gaming.
My life was normal getting up late, Mum shouting to go school, early morning, me lying down at bed me, saying, '5 minutes more mum I won’t be late', then at school standing outside for being late, enjoying the air around school, in a play mood plotting girls, sketching some stupid cartoon while Algebra going on board, stealing lunch box, teasing one another, cracking jokes on the fat lady teacher, was just fun at school, after a long day coming up all stressed out at home mum giving up a good snack at noon, then having a small fight around the remote control with my sister, till then dad coming up at 8 o’clock, starts off with news and lecture all the way, At night getting bored doing home work while sending forwarded messages to every other friends. I had loved my life as it goes on normally. My life was special in some kind even being a normal one I knew I had something big in my future.

She was silent for 5 seconds, I said it again and asked her to answer my question, she answered, and ‘I am going to listen to my brother’! The very moment I kept the phone down. I felt as if my love had no value, I went towards the train door catch hold of the pole leaned my body and felt the breeze of the wind passing through my hair and ears, I got down to a station as I had to change the train to go to Vashi, waiting at Wadala station, ignoring all the calls I just saw B letter on the board thought it was Belapur and boarded the train stand ed at door, seeing the ground at a height, this time the feeling was different, I didn't had my girl beside me, the wind told me to fly with it and there won't be any sorrow around you, the body wasn't in control of my mind, it was instructed by my heart, telling me to fall off. The moment later I went inside and sat down waiting for the station to come, at one station the train halted a lot time. I wondered why? and looked outside and observed that it was Bandra instead of being Belapur, I figured out I boarded a wrong train as in B is for Bandra, the same train again went to Wadala, so went through it again all the way that got me long time to reach home. I reached home, received the call from Sonia, she sounded worried about me, shouted a lot for ignoring her like this, she tried to explain me a lot and told me to understand and take it easy. That was the first time I cried in front of a girl even it would had been a phone, she consoled me saying, I haven't break en up with you, I corrected it that time you choose your brother that time you made your choice. She didn't spoke up for that. Thinking that she had done a very big mistake! She asked me to use abusive words on her that calm me down, she didn't knew that I loved her a lot and wouldn't dare to tell anything like that to her. We both calmed down, I silently asked her did she loved me ever or this all was just a joke, making myself a fool getting into you, or you just wanted someone to make you feel better for awhile, were you ever real to me, did you even cared about me or my feelings?