My Sonia was in 11th when I met her as a lover, saw her at Bandra for the first time, she was total sweet heart, she wasn't that mature as she looked, she was little kid dish, but she used to understand the reality of life, she still used to go in the imagination world where she still used to believe in magic, miracles, and hopes. She loved surprises, she used to stand up for herself, she was totally frank, if she didn't liked something she used to say right on the face, by her looks anyone would could had said that the girl is too bitchy or has an great attitude, but she was total friendly girl. She was small to think lots of things as in understanding feelings of other people when you say something directly without thinking a moment. Well at my look she was the perfect for me and I had no complaints her having an attitude and ego problems even if they existed. She is very optimistic, but she is not irrational. She will judge the entire situation as per the facts, analyze its probable outcome and still believe that things will get better. Usually, she is very calm and composed. However, when you become rude to her or offend her, she may become like the fire-spitting dragon. She attached to her family, but not too much. If you want to get something done from her, just ask her; don't order. She will never ever do it. On the other hand, she doesn't want a sissy for a boyfriend. He has to be a real man, who has his ego and won't stand for nonsense. So, you will be expected to balance politeness with firmness. I know it's difficult - but then, since when was winning someone easy. I looked deep inside her and found a woman who is so enthusiastic about life and who trusts easily. She is very sentimental and emotional, though it seems otherwise. It just that, where her feelings are concerned, she becomes too shy. She may pass the most sarcastic comments when she is angry, but she will forget the resentment soon enough. Then, she won't understand why the person was so upset.
She had a big brother almost 3 years elder to her and a one more elder cousin brother who lived side by side with his family he had completed his degree, was unemployed and sitting home jobless, her elder brother had a girlfriend, Sonia was too close to him almost everything she used to share with her real brother, they were like best buddies. He was happy when he heard about us and had no problem because he was as well in a relationship. But stressed out of life her elder cousin brother was somehow disturbed and wasn't agreeing to our relationship.
As I cried into tears, she said, “Roy please try to understand, I am not able to explain you, well I am very much sad about it as well, you are being a lot selfish, if it was a joke I would had never let you touch me and am not that kind of girl who uses guys for her own pleasure, I don't want to cry and make it worst, please don't cry, I would help to get over it, if you want I can ask one of my friends to see you and get along with you, I would find a lot better than me and I will make sure that it won’t end up like this, but please don't cry!, and please don't get depressed, it would affect on your studies and your boards are arriving so you should concentrate on it, it’s good for both of us, please try to forget whatever happened between us. Hope you understand me."
I kept down the phone, I couldn't control myself, I burst into tears, and the every negative thought of leaving her just pricked my heart as a needle. Sitting down alone in a window, my mum offered me to eat something, I said, I wasn't hungry and I ate outside though, I hadn't had nothing into my stomach since I left her at her home.
I was getting all stupid thought that she cheated on me and made me a dumb fool. Giving me a stupid reason for break up, well then I thought on what she said at end, somewhere in my heart I believed her blindly.
I couldn't sleep all night. My sister was studying in a low light; well I never discussed any stuff with my sister at all. But this time I did talk to her and just told her that ''I had a break up today!''
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